Where will I be on Saturday, July 2nd, you ask?? Oh, I'll be at the Mana concert at the Toyota Center. Yeah.

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Relishing in, and embracing, the moments when, with you, I am tangled, and talking of life, between the sheets.

"ONE THING I WOULD FIGHT FOR TO THE END, BOTH IN WORD AND DEED IF I WERE ABLE--THAT IF WE BELIEVED THAT WE MUST TRY TO FIND OUT WHAT IS NOT KNOWN, WE SHOULD BE BETTER AND BRAVER AND LESS IDLE THAN IF WE BELIEVED THAT WHAT WE DO NOT KNOW IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO FIND OUT AND THAT WE NEED NOT EVEN TRY."

--SOCRATES

Currently reading:

• The Eyes of The Dragon- Stephen King
• 1984- George Orwell
• A Practical Guide to Buddhist Meditation- Paramananda
• Shakespeare's Sonnets--Freshly Phrased- Joseph Gallagher

**Of course, I took the quickest route to a dead end. Now the only thing left to do is read the road markers of life, find a map and drive off into the sunset.**

Easter 2011 - Wolf Creek Park

Easter weekend has come and gone,
and all I got was this t-shirt!
Nah, I got tons of pictures and family time, too.

My little sis & niece kept asking why I was photographing the trees.

They give me oxygen, the least I can do is take their picture.

There was this hammock, I could lie on it... listening to the sounds around me... reading a good book, forever. I was too busy doing stuff most of the time, but I did jot down some thoughts here and there:

As I lay on this hammock,

I sway easily with the breeze,

But my thoughts remain constant.

Beauty all around me.

I just spent about two hours laying out in the backyard; reading and taking in all the beauty that constantly surrounds us, yet we routinely ignore. (SPF50'ed from head to toe, mind you!)

An old friend, let me borrow a book titled '90 Minutes In Heaven,' it is truly hard to believe, but amazingly inspirational. It really makes me think of what is to come. On a related, but different note, I can't wait for Easter weekend! My family is Wolf Creek Park bound and it is going to be a blast! I haven't been on a family camping trip in years. I love being outdoors so much, that even if I did nothing but lay on the grass for those 3 days, I would be completely happy.

Tomorrow, I am picking up my Laila Love. She has been with her Dad for about a week and I really miss her. I think of her starting school in about two years, and at that point her visits with Daddy will be limited to weekends, holidays and summer vacations, so I am willing to let him have her for as long as he wishes now.

PS My car has officially been named. Her name is Summer and it really suits her :)

January 22, 2011

Lots has changed since I last blogged.

After 7 years and a beautiful little girl, I am now single. How strange it feels to say that aloud...or type it. To Ptown I have returned, with lovely daughter in tow and our lives in plastic bags. 'Tis life.

I would much rather start over now, than to continue in a loveless relationship and grow old and bitter. My heart, mind and soul are bursting at the seams...with a love that I want to give freely, and, in turn, want to receive. Life is already hard enough.... and to live without loving is not the kind of life I want to lead. Many mistakes were made on both sides, there were too many negatives in this equation.

In a relationship, two negatives don't make a positive.

It has been said that doing the same things and expecting a different outcome is insane (or something along those lines) so I did something different. The result? Front's are now back's, up became down and the whole world flipped inside-out. No. Things are going good. From January til now I have: found a full-time job, bought a car, reconnected with my Mom, family and old friends, cut off my hair, paid all my own bills, quit smoking pot, started going to church (although I feel like such a cynic sitting there questioning everything they say).  I feel lighter and happy, positive and productive...free.

How amazing life can be, if only you let it.

All I need is you: