May 31, 2011

Moooovin' on up!

A friend at work got me talking about future plans with work, school and life in general. As things go with cause and effect, I now have a Monday-Friday schedule and have started the process for returning to school! Exciiiiting! The manager told me he'd rather the other cashier quit, than to lose me because of scheduling conflicts. She's been there 2 years to my one month... slackers get nowhere.

I will be the role model to her that I always missed in my own upbringing.

May 30, 2011

She talks and talks before she slumbers...

Momma? There's monsters, but you a superhero? Right? Laila super too.

Hey Momma, I gotta go. "where my Laila?" To Daddy's, but I go be right back. I go Daddy's so I come back home okay? "okay, what a big girl!" yeah, but I a baby too. Goo goo gah gah momma.

"i love you Laila, so much." I love you GIANT much my Mommy. And baby much too okay.

And she's out for the night.

May 11, 2011

Ella Wheeler Wilcox

The Common Lot

It is a common fate – a woman’s lot –
To waste on one the riches of her soul,
Who takes the wealth she gives him, but cannot
Repay the interest, and much less the whole.

As I look up into your eyes, and wait
For some response to my fond gaze and touch,
It seems to me there is no sadder fate
Than to be doomed to loving overmuch.

Are you not kind? Ah, yes, so very kind –
So thoughtful of my comfort, and so true.
Yes, yes, dear heart; but I, not being blind,
Know that I am not loved, as I love you.

One tenderer word, a little longer kiss,
Will fill my soul with music and with song;
And if you seem abstracted, or I miss
The heart-tone from your voice, my world goes wrong.

And oftentimes you think me childish–weak–
When at some thoughtless word the tears will start;
You cannot understand how aught you speak
Has power to stir the deapths of my poor heart.

I cannot help it, dear – I wish I could,
Or feign indifference where I now adore;
For if I seemed to love you less, you would,
Manlike, I have no doubt, love me the more.

‘Tis a sad gift, that much applauded thing,
A constant heart; for fact doth daily prove
That constancy finds oft a cruel sting,
While fickle natures win the deeper love.