I wish thoughts had an expiration date.  Not being unique in this aspect, I over-think, over-analyze but under-act?  Here I am thinking of if I should, how I could, maybe it would...and by the time I figure it out...it's no longer relevant.

The other day I heard of a classmates passing.  She was a classmate, I won't lie and say we were friends.  The thing I remember the most is her smile....big, bright, never forced and always inviting.  I used to tell her she'd win pageants with her smile alone.  Cristina was one of the few people I can say was constantly faithful.  I didn't know her but that was one of the things I was sure about...she didn't rub it in your face, but she didn't hide it..wasn't ashamed and it wasn't questionable for her.  Why would something as horrible as CANCER happen to such a wonderful, faithful person?  What could possibly be the reason in that?  They say...God doesn't give you more than you can handle?  Like I said, we were just classmates.  I was pretty upset about it at work, a coworker asked about it..that was nice.  People don't seem to care much about others anymore.  I always care too much.

Not a soul reads this, but I feel like I should apologize for the random rambling

...the unfocused energy that is this post.

There are feelings

fragments of thoughts

partial truths and traces of evidence

bouncing around in my head.

I feel the need to let them flow,

go where they may and finally let them be freed and heard,

read

...or not

...but they'll be out.

jmv