Lots has changed since I last blogged.
After 7 years and a beautiful little girl, I am now single. How strange it feels to say that aloud...or type it. To Ptown I have returned, with lovely daughter in tow and our lives in plastic bags. 'Tis life.
I would much rather start over now, than to continue in a loveless relationship and grow old and bitter. My heart, mind and soul are bursting at the seams...with a love that I want to give freely, and, in turn, want to receive. Life is already hard enough.... and to live without loving is not the kind of life I want to lead. Many mistakes were made on both sides, there were too many negatives in this equation.
In a relationship, two negatives don't make a positive.
It has been said that doing the same things and expecting a different outcome is insane (or something along those lines) so I did something different. The result? Front's are now back's, up became down and the whole world flipped inside-out. No. Things are going good. From January til now I have: found a full-time job, bought a car, reconnected with my Mom, family and old friends, cut off my hair, paid all my own bills, quit smoking pot, started going to church (although I feel like such a cynic sitting there questioning everything they say). I feel lighter and happy, positive and productive...free.
How amazing life can be, if only you let it.
All I need is you:
