06282012

I never really felt like it happened
Yes, I went through the motions
But it all felt as a dream
A slow motion recap of it
For a video on what to do
And what not to do

After, I felt accused
Every word was spoken with a bit of self defense 
I still don't see how it happened
How did I let myself spin so out of control  
 
Thinking back on those minutes
Which seemed like hours
Feeling as though the pain would last forever
Wanting to rip it off like a band-aid
While wishing it would just only melt away
Leaving me in a puddle
To be mopped up, wrung out and that would be that

Having grown tired of asking
I attempted it on my own
Only to prove to all that I couldn't do for myself
Oh, how pathetic I must've looked
In anguish, tears rolling
Knuckles white from clenched fists

Peeling away another layer
To make room for growth
It was torture

But the whole time you did it with love
Sad, pitying love
Like you were tending to a wounded bird left flightless
Only to restore it to health
So it could choose to fly away.